they're both so horribly shut off from the other it's like a physical hurt in my chest.
EXACTLY. They think they see, but they really don't, and everything they do to and for each other has the effect of pulling in two directions.
That's my Draco. If he falls apart, it's where no one can see. Where no one will ever know.
YES! He is too proud to show this side of himself, except perhaps to Harry, and not yet at this point in the fic. Not to this degree. He will battle through it himself, by god, or not at all. He will lock it away where it can be ignored, where it can fester but he can leave it alone.
This paragraph is the very essence of your Draco. It's EXACTLY him. Because it's so true, he looks, and he sees, but he doesn't. And oh god, how that has to hurt Harry so much. That Draco thought he was that anger, that hate, that pain, but he stayed anyway. That Draco would have stayed on, thinking that about Harry.
Yes, it has to be painful to Harry to find this out, and to realize just how much he was taking for granted, how much was not being spoken. He gets quite a scare when he almost loses Draco. I don't think Harry will be making the same mistakes again. But yes, I see him being incredibly hurt, both by what Draco thinks of him, and also by what he has allowed himself to do to Draco here. How he has treated him... But I think they will be okay.
Sorry about your makeup, and the work-lateness. *cringe* I hope I did not screw up too much... I LOVE YOU MORE!!
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EXACTLY. They think they see, but they really don't, and everything they do to and for each other has the effect of pulling in two directions.
That's my Draco. If he falls apart, it's where no one can see. Where no one will ever know.
YES! He is too proud to show this side of himself, except perhaps to Harry, and not yet at this point in the fic. Not to this degree. He will battle through it himself, by god, or not at all. He will lock it away where it can be ignored, where it can fester but he can leave it alone.
This paragraph is the very essence of your Draco. It's EXACTLY him. Because it's so true, he looks, and he sees, but he doesn't. And oh god, how that has to hurt Harry so much. That Draco thought he was that anger, that hate, that pain, but he stayed anyway. That Draco would have stayed on, thinking that about Harry.
Yes, it has to be painful to Harry to find this out, and to realize just how much he was taking for granted, how much was not being spoken. He gets quite a scare when he almost loses Draco. I don't think Harry will be making the same mistakes again. But yes, I see him being incredibly hurt, both by what Draco thinks of him, and also by what he has allowed himself to do to Draco here. How he has treated him... But I think they will be okay.
Sorry about your makeup, and the work-lateness. *cringe* I hope I did not screw up too much... I LOVE YOU MORE!!