Oh, wow. This... this is just... I had to read it twice, because the first time around I was just so hit that I couldn't really be coherent. The emotions- you have this way of bringing them out, and they're just so intense and raw and beautiful.

And he suspected I knew, that I understood him, and yet... he could not reach me. So he asked. Every night, what I wanted. It was the only expression he knew, the only way to speak to me.

Ohhh, these boys. There's so much misunderstanding, and they just leave it that way, even though they're both hurting, because losing the other would be worse, and it's just... yeah.

This is an amazing, amazing piece. Thank you so, so much for sharing it.